i truly understand tat peeking is not a behavior human being suppose to have, but we always hav a thousand reasons for doing tis,
okay, i read my moms diary, its nothing specific but ordinary just like every housewife does, wats in it? its all regarding about us,
mom wrote down all the happiness moment we've been through, with all our pictures we took when travelling, i think she is the one among tis family
who will keep our family photos in the diary, i saw the pictures when i was like about 10 years-old, frankly, in tat moment, i eventually understand
wat does family mean, how does family fill u up and make u complete, wat a good feeling to have someone would stick with u always and no matter how
far they gonna be, they still yours, and your partner, the one u always be with and share the sweetness and sourness with u, life could be a lot of oops, a lot of down,
but when u look at your partner, u will feel tat, no matter how hard situation gonna be, at least, u r not alone. . .
tats wat family make u complete, its 1:30am, i just cant turn my brain off, human tend to cherish all the momeries when they are about to lose it,
yea, true, i always started thinkin about my family when they are not with me, or maybe i should said, when im alone at home, i keep holding myself back when i about to entirely rely on my family, im not a kid anymore, i have to go my own way someday, but pls forgive my weakness, all i need is time, u know wat, i just cant afford to lose them, especially when i taste the tingling feeling of losing, everyone has their way to aim to, it might be not the same with u, i used to be assume tat someone might go the way tat i expect 'someone' will, but when u look at tis people went on the way wasn't the same with u, without turning back, u'll find out, the feeling was so real, everything changes, ppl changes, and it wouldn't be the same again, but only my family will always be mine whenever i am. . . sigh, im hungry again. . .

im sick and in the state of nobody taking care of, its actually ok for me cos i always take care of myself since i was 13, the most tough part is loneliness, my dad and mom is not around me and they are so far away from here, anyway, i can live with my own, (just feel like it would be better if they are here), i took some medicine, took a nap, woke up, and watched ocean 12 when i have nothing better to do. . .freezing my sofa off, stick with the tv, and the most sucky part is, my car is spoilt!!

"r u into serious relationship if u find the right one?"
someone asked me this question. . .

NEIL BARRETT

yohji yamamoto



versace




dolce & gabbana







bottega veneta

im in starvation now but is kinda lazy to get my ass out of this chair, sigh... i met veron at bvlgari yesterday, she was choosing a wallet for her hubby with her friends who just came back from japan, dare not to say is kind of silly for buying such an expensive stuff for a guy but im always disagree with it, but i didnt speak it out cos i know tat i will probably do the same thing if i was her, we are like a mirror teasing each other, so. . . lets talk about her friend, chika, a cheerful girl from a wealthy family and has nothing to worry about, fluent in japanese is really a big bonus for her, and she taught me something which was lingering in my mind on my way back,its something about ability, sometimes we have to measure our ability before we do everything. to put yourself on the edge is not a smart way to achieve the goal, especially as teenager is tend to be fragile and emotional nowadays, things would definitely getting worse, do whatever u wan to do, and able to do. . .

i have my wind with me,
i have my ice mocha with me,
i have my blue with me,
i have my corrine may with me,
i have my stranger with me,
i have my fascinating with me,
don bother,
i don need your company,
i hate "if i had known. . ."
u r not me, u wont be me,
so pls don said u know me,
cos u will make yrself like a fool...

i always think tat im so lost, but im actually just looking for the balancing of my life and the middle-ground of my sense. i try to be a follower but like i said, try, there always exist a huge gap between trying and vonlunteer, i hate rules, i hate uniforms, i hate routine. . .

i was lying on my bed,
we always realised how tired we are when resting,
feeling kind of blue but hardly to express,
we always look for paradise but ordinary,
its not so tough for not missing u,
cos i find it tougher for missing u. . .

if love can't be hold in your hand, why don't u hide it in your heart?

i think im getting older and older, i went for my frens birthday party and, of course, it was a night with full of alcohol and cigaratte, but i didnt smoke although they keep seducing me like devils, and the next day is like a half-death body keep forcing himself to move, not to be unconciousness but its like dreaming all day long, gosh......i ve never had this feeling when i was young!! where is my energy?!! sigh.....

may i. . .?

i've been so long for not blogging, my life is goin well i should say but just gonna be a little bit confusing when i still havent able to make up my mind. . .
its my off day today, i was wondering if i can do something meaningful but not tiring myself, and i think watching a movie would be a perfect choice for this lazy guy, "the holiday" was the chosen one and i found that i love this movie so much, i just love it, the story, the expression, the circumtances and, of course, cameron diaz and jude law are the extra bonus for this movie, this is the second times i watch it and there was always difference feeling on it. . im a seriously movie freak and i always deeply realise tat why does hollywood earn such a big buck every years, because they did able to touch people heart, and people is gonna be alright when they feel helpless. . .
you know what, i figured it would only be a matter of time for me to get over something, but i somehow know tat it doesnt matter about how long would it take to get rid of it but its about your willingness, u will be when u willing to, its gonna be so tough when all the goods for him and all the sucks for u, when u woke up in the morning and u found tat yr life its just like a mess and u've never been change,and u will about to find out, life is supposed to be happy as a teenager.