people always said changing would definitely be better, tat would only be when u hate tat thing, how i wish everything will be the same, but things keep changing just like it supposed to be,
tats something i need to talk with u about, but i just cant get my cowardise off and all the words was died when i try to speak out, which i taught i could. . .i feel like part of me has died. . .again. . .after all the things has came together in once, and only god knows how to save me.
there is a movie "golden compass", the bear said something couldn't be more meaningful, "i was born to fight, i would be nothing if im not fighting", true, everybody has their own role to play for, of cos, some of them might not be a prince, tats absolutely make sense cos no one is perfect, however, i truly understand wat should i go for, some might doubt tat im too young to make up my mind and how could i possibly know who i am? well. . . at least, i know when i am doing certain thing, i would feel so. . . unexplanable, kind of successful and satisfaction, satisfaction guide us to goal, goal makes disatisfaction, huh... totally ironic. . .