im wondering where the hell is my bravery, apparently i became a coward somehow and dare not to take any risks again, what wrong with me?. . . only god will know, anyway, i should be self-awareness, tat im not as good as i used to think i am. . . sometimes people really don buy your thought and i cant help changing their mind into they way i am. . . too bad, im dare not to make a difference. . . u wont understand wat im talking about, i supposed. . .