carpe-diem

2008-11-23T21:29:00.000-08:00

其实一直很怕习惯这事情，
他让你脆弱，让你怕黑，让你不敢一个人入睡。。。

2008-11-19T09:39:00.000-08:00

2008-11-08T21:18:00.000-08:00

2008-11-08T21:07:00.000-08:00

2008-09-09T02:42:00.000-07:00

2008-08-24T21:40:00.000-07:00

都把不能实现的想法推给命运，
我常会不知觉的懦弱。
我为什么能接受？
我不能接受的事情。
有人告诉我，
梦想是不一定会实现的。
的确，
一次一次的挫折会让我开始相信。
赶快，
在我还没完全相信时，
请给我一点奇迹。。
我还不想放弃。。。

2008-08-12T21:42:00.000-07:00

As we grow up,
we learn that even the one person that wasnt supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and its harder every time. You'll break hearts too,
You'll fight with your best frens.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pics, laugh too much,
and love like youve never been hurt because every
sixty secs you spend upset is a minute of happiness you will never get back.

2008-07-09T10:00:00.000-07:00

2008-07-05T11:16:00.000-07:00

2008-07-03T10:57:00.000-07:00

2008-07-02T21:42:00.000-07:00

常常听别人说，
人就是犯贱，
喜欢你的人不喜欢，
偏偏喜欢一个不喜欢你的。。。
可是我并不是这样认为的，
喜欢一个人可以是很身不由己的。
我不能控制自己的心跳，
也不能控制你的。
原来我不是错，
只是不够自私。
越冷的城市，
心也会开始变冷。
不够主动的原因，
是因为觉得轻而易举的事物别人不会珍惜。
偏偏我学不会时下潮人玩的手段。
又或是我重来都只相信真诚始终是种感动。
过后又发现，
好像没有什么人会陪你玩这么认真的游戏。
才显得有一点落寞。。

2008-07-02T09:57:00.000-07:00

2008-06-23T09:24:00.001-07:00

a friend of mine had just purposed to his girlfren with a very dramatic script,
boy said,"i don wan to be yr boyfren anymore"
girl said, "why. . . (sob)"
boy said, "cos i wan to be yr husband. . . will u marry me?"
oh......my..........god......
this is without question the most !@#$^%$# conversation ive never heard, i was like y didnt u bend down yr knee dummy!? but, yet, i was quite impressed by his integrity and persistance... and its quite reasonable tat i don actually feel it cos im not the one he purposed to, and again. . . do i deserve marriage? a guy like me. . .

2008-06-14T02:41:00.000-07:00

介指真是一個好東西, 它可以警戒你,
好讓你在牽別人的手的時候,
會感到愧疚...
我不是一個很好的人,
所以不會奢望有人會好好的對我...
重看了一次gossip girls,
裡頭有句話很好.
when u r growing,
the every decision u made,
will turn yourself into it.
選擇改變了我們.

2008-06-10T11:05:00.000-07:00

该怎么说呢。。。
无意中发现，手机里都存满了他的简讯，
不因该吧。。。
还记得以前分手时，
一个个地把简讯删除，
感觉不是很好受。。。
为了避免伤心，
我是不是因该。。。
不要那么被他充满？
ok.......
热恋中的男女，
又怎能明白呢？
我想太多了。

2008-06-08T20:48:00.000-07:00

约了一位朋友去看sex and the city,本来以为他会不喜欢，结果他竟然说这是部好电影。。。
片中其中一位女主角的话让我深受共鸣，男友为了给他惊喜而买了他一直很想买的戒指，女主角没有特别开心，反而觉得每次低下头时看到的不是自己，而是别人，买一样东西可以有很多理由，越贵重的物品反而自掏腰包会显得更有意思，是一种自我满足。。。

2008-06-02T20:34:00.000-07:00

永远都有一段距离。。。
把人们隔开，
我相信是一种自我防卫墙，
不经意的出现。。。
我爱你越多。。
你慢慢疏离。
你开始回头。。
我已不在。。。
我不是永远都在。。。

2008-05-29T10:12:00.000-07:00

2008-05-18T23:20:00.000-07:00

一個人在家, 我一般會看電影...
結果看了一部買了很久, 卻沒時間看的電影.
la vie en rose.
好久沒有被電影感動..
故事中的女主角,
讓我知道人無長好的事實,
勇敢去愛的精神最叫我感動..
edith piaf...

2008-05-17T22:52:00.000-07:00

曾經問過一位朋友一個怪問題,
"你認為你死後會去那裡?"
他認真的回答.(需要那麼認真?)
"我想我死後因該會活在我愛人的心里..."
我有超被impressed到.

2008-05-14T20:10:00.000-07:00

常常会因为不确定，
而不敢去肯定。。
但其实只要多一点点勇敢，
就能清楚知道一些事实。
就能知道其实你也不是那么需要一些人或事。
爸妈即将要回来，
习惯流浪得我，
其实很想念他们。
可是我知道我不能待在他们身边，
我会变懒，
我会习惯依赖，
我会变得不能没有他们。
他们会明白的。。。

2008-05-14T07:08:00.000-07:00

body can be shared with different people,
but my heart can't...
every hurt cos of every heart beat...

2008-05-09T00:06:00.000-07:00

真是个好地方...

2008-05-08T23:47:00.000-07:00

这些鱼饿到一个程度.... 我也痒到一个境界.

2008-05-05T20:11:00.000-07:00

被问了一道问题，
“会有真爱吗？‘
。。。。。。。。。
以前会相信有，
长大后觉得没有，
现在觉得，不一定没有，
也不一定有。。。

2008-05-02T04:14:00.000-07:00

2008-04-30T10:20:00.000-07:00

mummy, dont u think this is a lil bit too wild!!

2008-04-29T05:48:00.000-07:00

答应过veron，把巴黎的天空拍下来。
过后才发现，自己没有拍得很好，但懂得去看，去感受。。。
巴黎人真得很随性，狗可以自由的进出餐厅。
晚上的街道，真的有不经意的浪漫，
how could two persons not fallling in love in paris.
这句话我也深深的体会到。。。
再见巴黎。。。

2008-04-29T05:39:00.000-07:00

i love soho. . .

2008-04-26T15:03:00.000-07:00

静静的，我一个人抵达了伦敦，并没有很大的澎湃，反而是松了一口气。。。
冷冷的，我四处走走。。。感觉很好。

2008-04-26T14:27:00.000-07:00

本来以为是个浪漫之旅，到最后却演变成美食之旅，可是还真的是他妈的好吃。

法国人对食物很用心，摆设到烹煮都非常的花心思。。。

2008-04-26T14:18:00.000-07:00

so veron, wat do u think about it? ^^

2008-04-20T01:52:00.000-07:00

my mom and dad in vegas, this pic is extremely hilarious, what they are holding and shaking is sth which seem like lobster but isn't it way too big tat a normal lobster suppose to be? i think its more like a sea monster than a lobster, btw, linus was looking for his yogurt.
i like this pic!^^

2008-04-18T09:06:00.000-07:00

2008-04-14T08:58:00.000-07:00

離開是為了回來
還是純屬為了離開...

2008-04-10T20:28:00.000-07:00

相信veron应该是我最后的灵感了。。。
真的有一段时间没有好好blog了，
不是厌倦了，
只是有点empty。。。
veron借了我一本书，
第一个故事就已深深地打动了我，
“深夜了，他要走了。。。”
我看着这一行字，呆然得很酸。
要走，不是因为不想留下，而是不能留下。。
也还真的只有体会过的人才能够明白。。。

就要远行了，
心里是百感交集的，
远行的目的？
是有的，只是不会讲。。。
veron对于我的离开并没有很大的反应，
我相信他明白我需要的是什么，

一个机会，一个希望，一个灵感。。。
希望回来后能少一点贪婪，多一点快乐。

2008-04-02T09:37:00.000-07:00

i adore this. . .

2008-03-29T21:45:00.000-07:00

2008-03-21T03:32:00.001-07:00

2008-03-15T04:37:00.000-07:00

2008-03-11T04:35:00.001-07:00

2008-03-05T09:37:00.000-08:00

2008-02-23T04:47:00.000-08:00

2008-02-21T05:52:00.000-08:00

determination and decision always come from every little things or words,
whos gonna believe tat an army.boy.look young man would have such mind set or, shall we called it being happy philosophy. . .
he was wondering y do i look moody tis morning, and i answered " just a lil bit monday blue", the answer seem unsincere enough obviously,
"come on! don be like tat buddy, everything comes from your mind!" he was pointing his head, and smile.
his response is undeniably true and inspiring. happy people make a decision for being happy inspite of their problems, they concentrate on wat they have, not on wat is missing, most importantly, he pointed out, our state of mind is determined by our own thoughts, not by outside circumstances. . .
i supposed happines is always surounding us and waiting for us to achieve, we tend to pospone happiness sometimes,
" i will be happy if i get my pay rise",
or "i will be happy if i got the latest LV totebag. . . ."
but are u sure u couldn't be happy without them?
the meaning of existance always lead to unknown. .
one of my friends told me, " i would seldom envy how wealthy people are, cos we both have the same body, same hand, same 24 hrs, its just tat i didnt put any effort in this 24 hrs, of cos i get nothing lastly. . ."
appreciate more,
blame less,
be happier. . .

2008-02-20T00:33:00.000-08:00

2008-02-15T21:45:00.000-08:00

也不只从何开始学會抽烟的。。。
还记得雯说过，他开始学会抽烟，是因为一个男人。他的前男友。。
没有特别的原因，只是很想知道当他抽烟时是在想什么的。。
抽着抽着，也不知道雯到最后有没有特别了解他的前男友，
只是静静的抽烟。
眼神似放空却凝重。。
想着雯的情形，和我有点雷同。。
我曾是个超讨厌烟客的人。
也常curse他们得肺癌，
所以说话还是不要下得那们狠。
我常常看着前男友抽烟时，
也会想要了解他为什么要抽烟，
到最后任性的吊起一根烟时。
他一定会拿掉，然后说，“不要坏坏”
过后的几次，我都会跟他讨烟，
其实我也不是很想抽烟，
只是很想听他带关心的对我说不。
还真的有够无聊的。。。
原来我只是渴望关心，
就好像有些女人明明能够站得很稳，
走路起来还是会假装不稳，
因为希望身边的男人会扶她一把。
道理因该是一样的。。。
笨或聪明，对不一样的人有不一样的答案。
难得糊涂。。。
这句话还真得很好用。
我和雯偶尔还是会抽烟，
不会特别怪谁。。。
相信雯也一样，
每件事都有它的原因。。。

2008-02-14T08:56:00.000-08:00

don blame the player, blame the game. . .
quote by our edison chen~

2008-02-13T22:05:00.000-08:00

2008-02-05T05:52:00.000-08:00

the street became a lil bit lonely, people has gone to bed i guess. . . im sitting at my balcony and going to hav a lil chat with inside-of-me before going to bed. . . moody feelin stepped in silently without any sign,
i might get used to it for ages, life has turned out like how u treat it as, u r what u see r. . . i hav a big curiosity about how u think about me,
would u spare 3 secs on such an undecribeable person like me who still ringing u up for god sakes shamelessly? wat i hav expected wasn't yr prospect on me, or any
incredible promise. . . people might dont get it but i knew wat was i doing is just beggin a hope. . for me.
people changed, situation changed either, every moment i try to escape from myself, cos the true me has lied on me as well,
i fall asleep in the dark, and why do i wake up in the dark still?. . . perhaps i never wake up . . .stop it.
finished watchin movie with my brother a few hours ago, laugh insanely but my heart just doesnt seem the same with wat i've shown on my face, it seem like not
tat easy to shake those memories. . . i left my blue in my room, but there will always be there no matter how great my day was,
another thankful of my brother's passionate in tryin hard to open my heart although he eventually failed, blame it on me cos i've lost the key to open it.
i was questioning myself how long do i still wan to be the same again, cos i don wan to. . . badly, im alive, i should hav do whatever i wish for and get it done asap,
i hav a wish list, i still hav hope. . . somepeople might think im emotional but i think i hav more hopes than anyone else,
i know u can make it and make yourself proud, make it for your parents, for yourself, for a better u. . .

2008-02-03T19:24:00.000-08:00

its not a sunny day in tis thanksgiving morning, a lil bit hazy with a lil bit lazy. . . mind is clear but the way is blur, something about this world doesn't seem right, but the crowded train make things clean than ever. life is going on. . .
how i wish i could sleep for a lil while. . . .

2008-02-03T04:36:00.000-08:00

its been a while for me to let my emotional drown till. . . , is it wat mentally breakdown like? i find my leg is not belong to me after spending the whole afternoon shoppin around, i was lying on my bed, exhausted, made a few calls which i hav totally no idea to ring for, i must lost my mind to do such a cowardlike thing. . . and i called veron, soonly, she realised tat i was not in mood, she kept askin me why do i feel moody, she kept askin and askin, i was listening but not hearing a word, "don't cry". . . she sent me tears with just two words, doubtlessly, she took the last train to my place just to make sure everything is alright, yes, she was needed at tat moment but i find it guilty to let her worry. . . still the same, she appeared with a smiling face, like always, she would not ask me y, she would share u some joke before cut to the point. . . thankful for her kindness and thoughtful, but i really don know how to cry out my crap, would be great if i hav a new problem to share with, but crappy me still stick with the same old stuff. . . endless dissapointed. . . im suck

2008-01-31T19:32:00.000-08:00

wahahahahaa. ..........!!! little bear!

2008-01-30T04:36:00.000-08:00

for those who think she looks. . . sorry, u may just close your eyes and listen, cos its really nice.

2008-01-29T05:01:00.000-08:00

cant wait to watch this~

2008-01-29T04:43:00.000-08:00

i hav a colleague who always treat me as "buddy", yes, he is kind of the guy who easily to be friend with, and always try his hard to solve my problem when i was in trouble, be frank, i. . . don really treat him as a good friend but just. . . maybe just colleague, i think im not friend materials cos i always don know how to take the first move, like ask them out for lunch or movie. but this army-boy has been askin me out for weeks but still got rejected, haha, im so impressed by his intention for trying to make friend with me, and, although he is not really my friend type but i somehow see a good deal with him. optimistic, isnt it wat teenagers supposed to hav?

2008-01-27T19:23:00.000-08:00

wat a terrible pity. . . to lose yr own dignity, sanity. . . to make such an unforgiveable. . . phone call to tis. . . supposed.to.be.forgotten person? . . . im such a terrible saddy, shameless and perhaps i should said, useless. . . i had a lil chat with my long lost best fren last night, she was so impressed by this pic tat i took in melbourne, she said, no matter how well-done the rest of my pics are, she still stick with this pic cos she has seen the true smiling on my face which is truly come from my heart. . . i was like. . . wordless at da moment cos it is a fact, i wonder could i get tat smile back to my current life? im in doubt. . . and it caused me drowning in endlessly sorrow. . . how could i get it back? how cauld i win it back? could i still? . . . this pics was the most happiness moment in my entire life with my love, but its gone. . . i find so hard to chase it back but just not working. . . as the effort tat i paid. . . just as i try so hard to intimate tis smiling face but wouldnt be the same again, maybe we all hav to move on, perhaps. . . shall we?

2008-01-24T04:43:00.000-08:00

y famous?
because im kate moss

but im so into her. . .

2008-01-23T07:46:00.000-08:00

i hav a chat with my sister last night, she was preparing some sandwiches for samuel and husband, maybe some corn for linus. . .
cos they were going to spend the whole evening playing sand, glazing sunset on the beach where nearby santa monica, and wat i had in my mind tat moment was,
u guys don hav to be so haelthy! and i heard samuel was asking
for food "more! more" he said, ha, its the only word he know how to said, cute!. . .
the life is like couldnt be more peaceful and make u die for a family just like them asap, well, its just sth im craving for.
my life is as real as britney still remained barred for her kids, i still don know is it a good idea for giving her such a consequences which is utterly cruel for the whole world's mother.
from wat i've read, insider still insist tat brit need to manage her current situation before she has the right to get her kids back. . .well, just like when u still in the state of sadness about yr last relationship, u just can't step into the next relationship in ease, its either a mess or worse if u die to do it. i agree. . .
its about determination. . . we all lack of it to move on and go further, i don wan to be the same again.

2008-01-23T03:08:00.000-08:00

such a lost. . . its really been a while for being sad, i still remember i was so in touch with him in brokeback mountain, i cant help sobbing at the last scene as he looking at the pics and crying. . . and now he has dead in reality, what the hell is that? im absolutely heartbreaking. . . .

tragic, im deeply saddened and shocked by this accident, is suicide the only way? god knows. . . .
we will be missing u, heath ledger. . .

2008-01-23T02:33:00.000-08:00

2008-01-21T21:40:00.000-08:00

wat i've done. . .

2008-01-20T19:13:00.000-08:00

im trying to hold,
maybe i tried to hard.

2008-01-18T07:53:00.000-08:00

the left side. . .

2008-01-18T07:37:00.000-08:00

its 11:45pm, i took the last train to go back my home with full of unwillingness,
guess tis is not the first time i take the last train,
the feelin is like. . . cold but beautiful,
kinda get used to going back with an exhausted body,
so tat i can straight away fall asleep without spending time to think nonsence, absolutely nonsence,
and i finally got to know how could my sister earn such a big buck last time. . .
cos u will find yr heart hav nowhere to put in,
so u only can spend time on yr job. . .
when we found tat the thing is too easy to hold, we tend to overlook it,
we always look forward the one with more challenging and risky,
we like to take risk,
cos we like to bet on miracle and make impossible possible,
again and again.
but i hav tried, fallen from heaven to hell,
cos ive fallen in love with a devil. . .
sacrifice, does it work nowadays?
life is like fallin down and getting up again,
and the changing is when we were young, there is someone who always beside us,
tats our parents. . .
but now, they might not always beside us, some of us hav already learnt the lessons, some of them will,
but it takes longer, tats me. . .
how i wish i could surrender my soul sometimes,
i screamed out loud,
but there is no sound,
and from tat moment, i know tat tears and pain will make no difference,
i got to stand up. . .
im livin in a city with only black and white,
and a lil bit grey, but they always get isolated. . .
job opportunities and money is wat all about,
don't they need love?
maybe they are just doin wat they hav to do. . .

2008-01-16T19:23:00.000-08:00

i always think tat i really need a break to freshen up my mind, or maybe, just being lazy. . . after this 4 days break, i hav enough rest and time to do wat i intended to do, well, in the end i kind of. . . screwed it up, i started to realise tat my future is actually starting now, my so called fascinating.happy.ending future. every dollar i earn is for my basic human need. i miss the everything surrounded me, i need someone, i don know who might it be, at least i hav someone specific to talk to when i was alone, or maybe tired lying on the bed and cant even move my limbs but only my mouth, i still able to blame all the thing i've encounted today with u, or, maybe just lean on the shoulders without any words but holding hands. . . or, maybe everytime when i was disturb in wat to eat, at least someone can share thought with me giving me some idea,or there is someone give me a kiss everytime i reached home and makes me feel like everyday will become a thanks giving day, or maybe after the party when everybody has gone, but only u will stay and swicth off the light. . .

2008-01-14T03:51:00.000-08:00

i started to taste the tough life when i've finished all my money until my account became zero, i was kind of the way too spendrift the past few weeks, serve me right i supposed, and, again, a friend in need is a friend indeed, all i hav is friendship which always tell me the meaning to keep life go on. . . u hav no idea how clear i've make up my mind for not letting this kind of incident happenned again, i would never, ever, let me feel like this anymore.
when i was still in sch, i took everythings for granted, i even earn the higher "salary" than now, working life is like doing the same thing over and over again, not to mention all the fuck up things tat always happen in office, its really make me wonder y should i deign to do it still.
but, years by years, i understand an undeniable truth, to pay the rent, to buy my food, true, its simple but its just so true than any other things, tats no way for me to ask for money from my parents just like i used to be, when u r at this age, u hav to accept all the consequences tat come with and u got to take responsible on it, the rule is always the same, if u wan to live better, work harder.. .

2008-01-11T03:19:00.000-08:00

2008-01-10T05:27:00.000-08:00

am i broken?
ive been changing,
from a kid who desire for love,
to a guy who has no idea what the love is.
i feel bad to ignore yr every call,
u must be going freaky,
but dont u think tat i would be the most selfish person
if i pick it up?
i were so u not so long ago,
i hav truly seen, experienced everything.
we r all nice person,
why should we get stuck?

2008-01-09T03:20:00.000-08:00

2008-01-07T03:55:00.000-08:00

to the one who wonder why he/she need to go to work/school tomorro...

life is short,
break de rules,
forgive quickly,
kiss slowly,
love truly,
laugh uncontrollably,
and never regret anythin tat make u smile. . .

2008-01-06T04:49:00.000-08:00

wats the point to keep the key if the one who behind the door isnt the same again?

2008-01-06T03:53:00.000-08:00

i made a smart decision today ---- to watch movie alone, so i pick the one which is less ppl would go watchin with, "my blueberry night", i ended up with full of satisfaction and cant wait to say how much i love it, the every single scenes is just as beautiful as a painting, and, again, its so wong kar wai. . .

2008-01-05T06:18:00.000-08:00

people always said changing would definitely be better, tat would only be when u hate tat thing, how i wish everything will be the same, but things keep changing just like it supposed to be,
tats something i need to talk with u about, but i just cant get my cowardise off and all the words was died when i try to speak out, which i taught i could. . .i feel like part of me has died. . .again. . .after all the things has came together in once, and only god knows how to save me.
there is a movie "golden compass", the bear said something couldn't be more meaningful, "i was born to fight, i would be nothing if im not fighting", true, everybody has their own role to play for, of cos, some of them might not be a prince, tats absolutely make sense cos no one is perfect, however, i truly understand wat should i go for, some might doubt tat im too young to make up my mind and how could i possibly know who i am? well. . . at least, i know when i am doing certain thing, i would feel so. . . unexplanable, kind of successful and satisfaction, satisfaction guide us to goal, goal makes disatisfaction, huh... totally ironic. . .

2008-01-04T02:43:00.000-08:00

不开心。。。
没有特别的原因，
呃。。。
也不是没有，
只是不懂怎么说出口。。。
我想我们根本不适合，
我不开心，
你知道吗？
你比较关心我到底爱不爱你。
我不开心，
难道你没看穿？
我不需要一个人来增加我的负担。
我能养活自己。
。。。
不能说我不需要依赖，
可是当你发现对方是错的，
一切都会是错的，
那你明白了吗？
我不开心，
不是因为你，
而是我可怜我自己。。。

2008-01-04T02:19:00.000-08:00

i know u r reading

2008-01-03T05:12:00.000-08:00

家人对我来说就像玫瑰，
我会细心的照顾他们，
不让他们受伤害。。。
你不知道有多痛，
当你看到有人一直往这朵玫瑰，
一直踩，
一直踩。。。
最令人惊讶的是。。。
那个人就是你最熟悉，
也最陌生的哥哥。。

2007-12-31T00:17:00.002-08:00

i hav never seen snowing before, but this is the first time to see how a snow falling from the sky, thank u for giving me the change to see this beautiful scene thru webcam, its really beautiful. . .

2007-12-31T00:17:00.001-08:00

2007-12-28T04:59:00.000-08:00

it really shocked me when i realised my cellphone was lost accidentally this evening, luckily it was found in my office drawer after tat, but bcos of this incident, i got to know this old lady who lent me her phone to make a call so tat i can find mine. . . we had a little chat about how was my future like and where im heading to, dreams, experience. . .this is the first time i have finally openned my heart and speak my part-of-all out to a totally stranger. but i find it comforting as i got a very good responce in every thought i said, i was told to take care of my every belongings no matter how small it is, spare a lil bit more time to think about wat hav u left behind in every turn around. she told me a lot of little things tat we always careless in, true, everything start from the littlest thing, by missing and found my cellphone, i got this message from an old lady who might not been seen in future, but the caring is shown, and i will always treat it as a gift from heaven. . .

2007-12-28T04:49:00.000-08:00

2007-12-26T05:33:00.000-08:00

i was walking on the street, swinging my bag. . . going no where, but i was missing u. . .

2007-12-26T05:17:00.000-08:00

friendship-forever-annual-christmas-winter-party!!!!!

2007-12-19T22:08:00.000-08:00

look at samuel!! he is a big boy now!!

2007-12-19T21:47:00.000-08:00

its my december,
the raininf season,
the greeting season. . .
happy birthday kiv. . .

2007-12-19T02:58:00.000-08:00

2007-12-18T01:13:00.000-08:00

come and say hi to my sister's newborn baby,
Linus!! super cute!!

2007-12-15T21:24:00.000-08:00

and im so happy our britney spears has finally came back, just check out the latest music video "piece of me". http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89oS4SN4mNg

2007-12-15T21:10:00.000-08:00

things just dont work out and we all don expect it to be, u said tat i broke yr heart, well, what make u think tat my heart is not broken as well? u r not the one im looking for, im not the one u looking for too,
so whats the point to go on?

2007-12-14T19:38:00.000-08:00

after finished working, i was kind of like rushing to my house to meet my long-time-no-see parents, my mom was just came back from state and brought me back plenty of gifts from my sister, and the one i always put at first is, of cos, dolce gabbana jeans! lol!
" heres my little prince" yes, the welcome script they always used on me, and i trully feel the meaning of home sweet home! its too good to be home. . . urm, few minutes later, i was told tat thay gotta go to kl after the dinner for some business stuff and i was like, again?! i was purposely rushing back to. . . well, wat can i say? im a big boy right? big boy supposed to be independent, heres a little sharing about my friday night, we ended up with less than 3 hours gathering and the love birds has left again. . .sigh. ( its good to see them!!)

2007-12-10T05:49:00.000-08:00

ZOUK ME OUT!!!

2007-12-10T05:34:00.000-08:00

ending and beginning. . .

2007-12-04T06:48:00.000-08:00

its too good for being single^^

2007-12-02T05:06:00.000-08:00

lao gong - dada - bibi - baobei - ......... and now is honey.^^

2007-12-02T04:49:00.000-08:00

当我发现自己的生活还是被打扰时，
我就会开始觉得自己没有自由。
不喜欢太多人知道我是谁，
人言真的可畏，
不能够好好的放开。。。

2007-12-02T04:12:00.000-08:00

感冒了。。。
曾经有个朋友说他很喜欢感冒，
因为会有一种哭的感觉。。。
可是我还真的很不喜欢。。。

2007-11-29T04:00:00.000-08:00

曾经有个朋友告诉我，她偶尔会打给以前的男友，电话通了，她不会说话，只是想听听前男友的声音，一解思念之愁。。。这种行为完全反映了人多情的一面，与放不开有一点点的不一样。这点我明白，我们都属同一星座，我们都是多情得有一点泛滥。。。我们都会一一记起过去，但始终会觉得，忘记总比记得好。。。

也有一个朋友告诉我，她和男友的性爱时间，地点，甚至套套都是她一手安排，原因无它，“因为我要。”她潇洒地说。。。果然是豪迈，忍不住敬她一杯酒。。。

我也有一个朋友，她向来不奢望有个小开男友，好让自己尝一尝少奶奶的滋味，他反而觉得靠自己会比较实际，而另一个朋友，总是希望有一个富裕的小开能从天掉下来。。。后来两人的际遇截然相反，前者去了美国念书，还交了一个律师男友，而后者却夜夜深歌，至今仍单身。。。

事情总是，你越想，就越不给你。。。

这一段日子，我学会了珍惜眼前人，事物与所得，少一点怨恨，多一点体谅多一点关怀。。。

今天，他跟我说了“天长地久”这四个字。。。对，就是这句又可怕又动听的话，这话从一个金发绿眼的人说出口，我心中真的有很大的o/s, "你到底明不明白什么是天长地久“？人长大了，对事情的看法也变了。。。没那么执著，对于这些太动听的话，我相信这一刻是真的，只是不长久，毕竟人真的会变。只要此刻是真的，就够了。。。

2007-11-28T05:32:00.000-08:00

终于。。。我能够安静的好好写一下我的心情。。。
常常有满脑子的画想要写，只是一直没有这样的时间，只因为太忙了，对，忙着恋爱。
简简单单的一个人，是经典的平凡人，dump dump 的，chubby的，只是金发绿眼而已。。。
李安导演拍完《色。戒〉后曾经说过一句话，“电影一部一部的拍下去，路也一步一步的走回来”。一句多么有道理的话。。。（李安导演从文艺片起家，后来进军好莱坞，拍了数多武装片，最后却以文艺片或得荣誉）
曾经多么想要把头发染色，现在却觉得只有黑发最顺眼。。。
以前喜欢的对象都要长得好看，富裕，但经过了许多不堪的过去，原来我只希望一个傻傻的人好好爱我。坦白说，经过那段让我一夜长大的恋情后，我几乎没有遇到一个像样的人，只因我一直想要找一个比他还要条件好的人，我越找，却越迷失。。。
曾经去算过塔罗牌，那个臭gipsy说我会有很多段姻缘，但没有一个好结果。
我还真的又被他诅咒到，真是他妈的！
过去的日子，我只是空虚的走过，只因没有依靠。。。
却不小心遇到这位。。。也不知道该怎样形容他，一个热爱中国文化的瑞典人，平时最爱与老人家chill out,最喜欢的明星是王菲，（她妹妹更劲爆，偶像是ayumi),还真的有点另类。
跟他去见过那些老人家一次，老人家对他都非常的好，我想是因为他的善良吧！
坦白说，我是个非常崇洋的人，他却跟我相反，我最想往欧州的浪漫，他却喜欢大陆。
可是因为它，我开始认识中国，开始发现他的好。。。
他给我的感觉是很单纯，好学，（只是我真得很不喜欢他学福建话）。但我呢？坦白说，我真的不是走纯情路线的人。可是跟他在一起的感觉，真的又被他的乐天感染。人也变得没有那么多怨恨。。。
约会的地点更是劲爆，他最喜欢约我在小印度吃咖喱饭，china town的肉骨茶，等等另类的地方。可是却非常的好吃。。。（我只能说，我中了爱情的毒^^)
曾经想要的很多，失去的更多。。。但躺在他怀里，我却拥有了全世界。

累了，下次再说吧。。。

2007-11-25T04:16:00.000-08:00

突然心里满满的。。。

2007-11-21T21:14:00.000-08:00

she is the way too beautiful

2007-11-21T21:13:00.000-08:00

these angels rock!!